Stresses

- I got the results back on my maternal 4 and they were all normal. Thank God!! Oh, and this, of course, is not one of the above mentioned stresses.

- Sue is on a roll with baby shower plans. I appreciate her SO much, I do. But when you start talking renting party rooms at the legion and planning menus, I start thinking $$$$. Who is paying for all this? Not my mom, who does not want to be involved whatsoever in shower planning...not my sister who wants to co-host, but does not want to break the bank (obv) and I sure don't want to spend a bunch of money, nor have a bunch of money to spend. I kind of said this in my last email, but I think she is mad or something now because I haven't heard back. Oh dear. Jason says he will call her.

- We find out "what the baby is" in less then a week. I am excited but nervous. I kind of want a girl. But on the other hand, Jason wants a boy so much that I will feel a little bad if it's a girl. Even though technically, he was the one with the deciding factor in this equation....I just don't want him to be dissappointed.

- Only 5 more months. But that is a long 5 months without my beloved zoloft. The OCD is coming back in full force and it blows. I had made so much progress that I thought that it wouldn't matter so much that I would be off of the meds. Alas, it does. Dr H says that if it gets bad, I can go back on. But I am assuming that is at a low dose and we all know that a low dose does jack for OCD. *tear*

- A few of the girlfriends of Jason's guy friends have decided that I am their new target. It started because one of the girl's boyfriends cheats on her incessantly. At a party, this guy pulled some shit with Jason's best friend's gf and then proceeded to put him in a headlock when he confronted him. Jason stepped in and told the girl and her crappy bf what was up. This all happened AFTER I had left the party mind you. But this girl decided to say all kinds of nasty things about me anyways. Apparently, it has only snowballed from there. Her bf has since broken up with her, but she is still saying nasty things about me and her cohort, another of the gf's, has joined in. The first girl is bitter and jealous and in denial, I get it. It's not a good excuse to throw me under the bus and make up lies, but I do get it. Her friend though, is the worst kind of backstabber. Because she will not admit it. She had a party the other weekend and must have forgotten that some of the girls she invited are my friends too DUH! Because her and the first girl proceded to talk about me the entire time. And of course it got back to me. And when Jason confronted her (they used to be best friends), she pulled her "I am so sweet and I have no problems with anyone and how on earth could you accuse me of this OMG" act. Pathetic. If you are going to be a huge backstabbing lying d-bag, at least face up to it. Best part is, I have never been anything but nice to these girls and have tried my damnest to fit in. But thats the way high school goes isn't it? Wait, we are in our late 20s? What! Someone send out the MEMO!!!

Anyways, Jason is going to a party on New Years where these people will be. I just do not want to deal with it, nor are they the people who I want to ring my brand new fresh start of a year in with. So I am facing the prospect of possibly spending New Years home alone and that makes me sad. I understand that J wants to be with his friends, but I wish he would be a little more supportive of my NOT wanting to be with his friend's girlfriends. Hopefully I can tag along with my friends but no one really has any set plans yet so who knows...